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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends and welcome to episode 1242 of the Juicebox Podcast.

Today I'll be speaking with a returning guest. This is John from Episode 688 type two stories, John. And John's here to give us an update on what's been going on. It's significant, you're gonna find this one crazy inspirational, I think, but let's make sure you heard 688 first because John's got quite a story. Please don't forget that nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise, always consult a physician before making any changes to your health care plan for becoming bold with insulin. Maybe you'd like to save 30% off your entire cart at cozy earth.com I'm talking about the clothing, the sheets, the towels and everything else. Go there, fill up that cart type in the offer code juicebox at checkout and you will save 30% at cozy earth.com. When you place your first order for ag one with my link, you'll get five free travel packs and a free year supply of vitamin D. Drink ag one.com/juice box. If you're looking for community go check out my private Facebook group Juicebox Podcast type one diabetes, but John's over there. He's type two. There's type ones there's caregivers gestational moody doesn't matter to us. This episode of The Juicebox Podcast is sponsored by the ever sent CGM and implantable six month sensor is what you get with ever since. But you get so much more exceptional and consistent accuracy over six months, and distinct on body vibe alerts when you're high or low. On body vibe alerts. You don't even know what that means to you. Ever since cgm.com/juicebox, go find out. Today's episode of The Juicebox Podcast is sponsored by Omni pod and the Omni pod five, learn more and get started today at Omni pod.com/juicebox. Hi,

Jon 2:12
it's good to be recording with against God. I'm John kafele. and I have type two diabetes. I've had two type two diabetes for decades, three or more decades, I've been using insulin for almost 20 years. And I've been able to turn around and manage my type two diabetes and put it into remission at the age starting at the age of 60. I'm 63. As of last week, I told my story originally two years ago in Episode 688. And this is a an update on I guess what I'm doing and things I've learned. Thank you for the opportunity to share. Now

Scott Benner 2:51
it's my pleasure, and you have a lot to update us on. So that's why I was super excited to talk to you. And at some point, we're gonna get to the photo that you sent me to get me ready for this episode. That was a really like eye opening. I'll tell people more about it later. But yeah, please check John out on episode 688. And I don't know, I think these will stand alone pretty well. But if you really want to hear the whole story straight through, I think that would be the way to go. John, I'm gonna start off with something out of left field for you. What would you say if I told you that, when I released the type two Pro Tip series, I lost hundreds of listeners,

Jon 3:26
I would say that that's very unfortunate. And that a big goal I have had is to close the gap between type one and type two, by recognizing at least that type twos that use insulin are part of being bold with insulin, and that nobody else's struggles diminish your own. And that in commonality and a common cause we find strength. So

Scott Benner 3:56
I expected a little bit of blowback like a tiny bit. And I don't want you to get me wrong, I didn't lose like a large percentage of the audience or anything like that. But I lost about 400 listeners in the snap of a finger by putting up type two pro tip. And that was it. And it may be the whole series may have may have been like seven or eight episodes long. And I believe it was spread out over seven or eight weeks. So in a week where I put out five episodes, one of them was an addition to the type two Pro Tip series. And I even came at it by saying to people like look, you have type one diabetes, the show obviously is valuable for you. Maybe this information can be valuable for someone else, you know, with type two, and I thought the show would be a good way to get that information around because historically, I've watched a lot of people try to help people with type two diabetes and not go anywhere. And often. You see companies or organizations sometimes manufacturers, sometimes pharma companies, they try to kind of create a type to community and it just doesn't work over and over again. So I thought, oh backdoored, I'll come in through the type ones who already know this information is good. I'll go share it with my, you know, uncle who has type two. And I'm sure some people did that. And it's fantastic. And I actually know, personally of people that it's helped. But man, I woke up the next day, and I was like, oh, geez, it's not going to be easy to get those 400 people back, like, it's hard to get a person to listen to a podcast and to get 400 of them is a bit of a hump. But anyway, nevertheless, I persist. And here you are, again. I'm not. I'm not given up, I believe, like you that there's commonality between people who use insulin, have type two diabetes and people with type one.

Jon 5:40
Absolutely Good, good. We're stronger together.

Scott Benner 5:44
I don't see another way around it. But I'm kind of leading into it this way, so that you can maybe recap your first episode in a couple of minutes by telling us how you got to hear meaning knowing about the podcast?

Jon 5:56
Well, I've been taking insulin for over 17 years. And a big part of the story is that trying to form my thoughts here, long acting insulin for type two diabetics, people with type two diabetes can be an imprisonment of sorts, when you establish an increasing Basal rate through the use of something especially like to see but with a 42 hour half life, you and you don't modify your behaviors to lower that Basal rate, the amount of insulin that covers inappropriate eating, in the evening, eating a pizza needs to be balanced by the same amount of eating in the morning. And in the afternoon. So what you end up in is a trap you can't get out of and you can't try to modify your behaviors part of the day, you have to modify it 24 hours a day. Does that make sense? Yeah. No, it does. So I asked my GPS for over the years, I moved a lot. I've had different doctors and I would always ask the GP, the general practitioner, I would like to have Basal insulin so I can address mealtime, increases in my glucose and not be trapped in this higher increasing basil. I started at 40, I ended up at 140 and 140 units is a lot of insulin, or at least for me, you know, it's different for different people, but it was a lot of insulin, want to be able to titrate that downwards to establish a real Basal and then use Bolus insulin. And they would never do it. Finally, the last up I got, he replaced a doctor that moved away. And he is my current general practitioner still. And I said to him the same thing, hey, I want Bolus since they always told me to go exercise and lose weight. You told that to a guy who has 500 plus pounds until that guy, two guys 370 pounds. It doesn't really matter. There's something else that needs to be addressed. But this guy told me almost flippantly, the best thing that has ever been said. He said, Ah, you should go see an endocrinologist. And so a month later, I saw Liz and Elizabeth Driscoll over here at Sentara in Charlottesville. And I told her that I wanted to have Bolus insulin. And she said, Yeah, where's Is this your current pharmacy? I'll do that right away. I should also point out the before that in the beginning of our meeting, I told her that I was interviewing her for a job to be my medical assistant, but that I was in charge, and I would be making all the decisions. But the she had the control over the medicine locker as it were, we had to get along. And she was going to, you know, prescribe the right stuff for

Scott Benner 8:36
me. Do you think you knew in that moment? That? I mean, you just kind of you kind of offhandedly said that a guy over 500 pounds doesn't just need to be told to exercise as if like what you're really missing is just a brisk walk. And so like, did you know there were other factors at play in your health? At that moment?

Jon 8:55
Oh, absolutely. You know, the thing is, carbohydrate and sugar addiction is a thing. And it doesn't mean you don't you know, I imagine even if you're a heroin addict, you probably know that the last thing you need to be doing is heroin. And you probably are very intimately familiar with the failures in your life it causes. And clearly a guy is 540 pounds and cannot perform basic hygienic tasks. is aware of that, right? Yeah. Is that addressing what you're asking? It

Scott Benner 9:24
does? Yeah, I just didn't know if you were blissfully unaware and just cruising alone, or if you were aware, but unable to adjust, painfully aware,

Jon 9:34
but deeply addicted and not given access to the types of care that were necessary to break me out of that. Okay. And part of it is I have a lot of resentment over having been prescribed long acting insulin in and then ever increasing amounts, because that really became a prison that I couldn't get out of, and then not being willing to prescribe me Bolus insulin and allow me as soon as I got Bolus, insulin, everything turned around. Now, of course that required me to make use of that, right? You can't just give them the Bolus insulin it changes. But I have the tools at that point. Okay. Yeah. So Liz is happy to work with me. And then she said the thing that changed my life, she said, Have you ever thought about a pump? And I laughed, and I said, I'm here trying to get Bolus insulin for the first time. And you're asking me a person with type two diabetes, you know, how about a pump? And in my mind is the Darth Vader, you know, huffing and puffing through the mass with tubes and steam? And she says, Well, no, there's also a tubeless pumps. By the time I got home from that appointment, I went to the pharmacy, I live in the country. So it's like 40 minutes to get home. But I went to the pharmacy picked up my insulin, I'm there with it. And the insolate rep calls me and says that I was on Medicaid at the time. And he says that, you know, we just had a change in Medicaid in the state of Virginia, and I'm sending you out a whole starter kit if your game for it. And I was like, Well, absolutely. And then everything changed. And I started open source iOS loop in a few weeks of that. So

Scott Benner 11:01
how did you get to that so quickly? I've been professionally

Jon 11:04
involved in open source my entire career. And so I've always been aware of other open source projects and things like that. I've been aware of diabetes. And so I knew there was an artificial pancreas stuff out there. I see. And so I was like, Are you kidding me? I've got the Bolus insulin. I've got the iPhone. I've got the compilers and things. I have the skills. Now I have going straight to the head. Yeah, here I go. Yeah. I'm going straight to the head of the class, baby. Yeah. Nice.

Scott Benner 11:27
Okay, so, Jesus, you use just Basal insulin for 17 years,

Jon 11:33
for 14 years or so. Okay. I can't nail down exactly when I started. It was somewhere in between 2004 and 2007. Plain smoke.

Scott Benner 11:42
I'm sorry, God, no, I

Jon 11:44
was just gonna say I went to a doctor's appointment and had had an eight one C test and it was 14.5. And the doctor is like, how do you I have a very busy career and was responsible for managing operations infrastructures for large internet sites and things like this. And which is like a 24/7 very demanding job. He said, How do you do it? Um, I don't know. And so he prescribed me the insulin and I remember I went back to get started with it. And he showed me to inject your my jeans and to reuse needles from day one. How about that? There you go. So what were you going to even ask him?

Scott Benner 12:16
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Jon 15:12
That's a good question. You know, one element of it is the insulin causes insulin resistance. And the more insulin you take, and the more food you can input, it's a cycle, you know, one feeds, it's a feedback loop that increases the amount of insulin you take for the amount of resistance you have and the amount of food you're eating. And as you turn one of those up, the others turn up with

Scott Benner 15:34
it. Do you mean that as you add Basal insulin, your body becomes less and less effective, and therefore you need more more the manmade Basal?

Jon 15:43
Well, that's part of it. Of course, in my case, in case I think, many I have an extreme eating disorder. And that is the number one propellant in my diabetes, okay? There's, there's genetic predispositions. There's economic and other access to food and things that happen and so forth. There's a lot of things in my case, it was a extreme district eating disorder related to you know, childhood trauma, blah, blah, blah. And it literally fed on itself. So the prison of long acting insulin for person and my condition is that it gives you a license to eat a large pizza for dinner. And to follow it up with big chocolaty treats and things like this. And what that eating is doing is it's creating dopamine releases that our guests just straight up like taking drugs, and it is taking a drug. It's the different method, right? And so you're addicted to that high, you're addicted to that. And so, you know, you hear about like, maybe you don't hear about it, but the idea is a person does is on heroin, and all of a sudden, everything's just hunky dory. Everything's absolutely wonderful in the world. Even if you're in an alley, you know, on a piss soaked mattress by a dumpster, everything becomes wonderful. And that's what food does to a person with my pathology. Gotcha. All right. Well, that was my history. And so if you eat that pizza and everything the next morning, you still have that high Basal rate.

Scott Benner 17:14
Yeah. And so almost functionally, what you think is like, so was there actually a time where your blood sugar was one of the reasons you finally could stop eating at the end of the day? Great. Like, I can't keep doing this. But then all of a sudden, the the insulin felt like a crutch. Or is that not right?

Jon 17:29
Insulin was always an longterm act long acting insulin was a enabler and a in trapper, does that?

Scott Benner 17:37
I think so. No, I think I understand I just, I just wanted you to really spell it out for me. So once you get a pump, and you get to an algorithm, and now you're covering your meals with Bolus insulin, how is that different from just basil?

Jon 17:52
I'll tell you what it was. And it was what I envisioned it would be all along, I remember, I'm an engineer, and so forth. So I have a very certain place on the spectrum with my mind. Once I had that tools in hand, I could see how much the foods I were eating, were directly impacting my glucose performance. So throughout my life, you know, and if you're not too, I can solve any problem. But if you're not driven to solve it, you're glib about it, right? So at one point, I convinced myself that sugar wasn't the problem. It was fat in foods and all these different things, right. And once I started taking Bolus insulin, and really paying attention to it as I do, I saw the effect of every single thing I put in my body. And I quickly realized that for me, grains were not helpful. Okay. And they're not. So I had a budget, right, I had a performance profile, I had a thing I was trying to do. And I was trying to reduce my overall use of insulin from the beginning. And I was trying to achieve at that point, I wasn't trying to achieve normoglycemic values, but I was trying to achieve achieve non life threatening values. Gotcha. And it happened very quickly, though. And I started realizing the different kinds of foods and the ways of eating that were harming me. And I just thought about, I was able to kick the drug, almost cold turkey, I remember it now. Like I thought, you know, I'll just have a sandwich in the middle of the day, just a nice sandwich with a lot of vegetables on it and some meat and just two pieces of bread that I'll dose for. And then what happened was, I realized that even though I could dose for those two pieces of bread, that they had a significant carbohydrate impact and long tail effect that I had to manage that I had to use more insulin to deal with, that I had to pay more attention to. And then it became evident to me that I could just have that vegetables with some meat on top of it and not have the other impact. And it just made more sense for me. Okay.

Scott Benner 19:49
It's interesting that you had that problem first. So I mean, would you consider this disorder lifelong?

Jon 19:54
It pretty much manifested by eight years of age. Okay, well, that yeah, pretty much lifelong.

Scott Benner 19:59
So My point is it's interesting that getting the pump, and I guess I'm assuming a glucose monitor as well. And then like, yes. Is that right?

Jon 20:09
I've been using Dexcom for a little over seven years. Yeah. So I've been using Dexcom for four years prior to being finally given Bolus insulin. It was just a waste. It was just a thing that would alarm all the time. I've gotten phone calls with friends. And they'd be like, Oh, that's your alarm. And I'd be like, Oh, whatever.

Scott Benner 20:27
So it's interesting, though, isn't it that you have the information? It didn't get you to change but then suddenly, once you had another tool, you were like, Oh, I eat the bread. My blood sugar goes up. I'm gonna stop eating the bread. Let's go. I'm on this journey. Do you don't know what pushed you in like over like, it sounds like you think it's the pump, but I don't understand why. No,

Jon 20:47
no, no one. One is observational. The Dexcom is observational. The insulin is interventional. Okay,

Scott Benner 20:54
so you felt more powerful with the the Yes, Bolus insulin, okay.

Jon 21:00
Yes. And it was also a way to get off of the long acting. Gotcha. All right, I understand. And the funny thing is, I didn't titrate the lung acting because I immediately recognized that a pump with its micro Bolus ng is Basal and Bolus. So okay, that was pretty cool. Right there, I was able to holistically I didn't have to titrate it was like, MBI. Right, right. I didn't have to work those against each other, or with each other.

Scott Benner 21:25
You see the impacts, you keep you stay, it's amazing, you're able to just stay on that new path, which is laudable, it's fantastic. But you stay on that new path. And we are in there, do you find the podcast immediately? Okay.

Jon 21:39
Like, immediately, you know, you got search tools, you got Facebook, you can search there, you can search Google, you can do stuff. So you start saying like, who knows, you know, what are the outlets? Where do you learn about how to use insulin? Actually, literally, my thing was, I've got this stuff, how do I learn how to use it. And I'm very antagonistic to anybody that has anything to sell. It's just raises my spidey sense in a big way. And so when people have a miracle diet, or they want to sell you cinnamon, or they want to tell you how you need to do it, it puts me off because as you can tell, I'm pretty much think I know everything already. And I'm very, you know, engaged. And I want to form my own opinions and stuff. And I don't want to just buy a cure. And so social media is a great place. I've been on social media all my life, since the Usenet and things back in the whale days, I just wanted to find a place where I could talk to people that were doing the same things. And when you look for type two groups, on Facebook, I'm a middleman. So I don't Twitter or ticker totter talker much right? Um, looking on Facebook for groups, and every type two group I found was part of a company and had a thing that they wanted to do with you at all. And then your group was about being bold with insulin. And that made a lot of sense to me. And I reached out to you very early. And I said, Help me, what the hell do I do with this? And you know, you gave me some insight and suggested I read the group and do more there. And I did. And then before long, I actually reached out to you. And I said, I wanted to start a type two group. And you suggested that that would be a great thing. But let me know that you were also working on providing type two participation in the group and support in the group. And, and I was like, You know what, I'm just gonna wait and see where that goes. So I'm honored to have been an IRL monitor have been an early guest, and I'm honored to be part of the group. And it's really cool to be here again, with you, Scott,

Scott Benner 23:32
I appreciate that. You're also you're one of the I would say one of the key reasons that the group attracts type twos at this point, too, because you've been so open and clear about what you've been through. So I'd like to do that here, too. I'd like to talk a little bit about what happens. I think maybe we should jump into like the weight loss journey. Like how long does that go on for like, I'm right to say that you're basically a pretty low carb guy, right. And that's been since you found the pumping. That's

Jon 24:03
the funny thing. It's, you know, it's not overnight, right? Okay. And so even before getting the insulin, I was trying to modify my behaviors. And in a year or two before I finally got a hold of that the Bolus insulin, I was actually deeply hypo about a half a dozen times. The rescue squad had to come out four times and they transported me to the hospital twice. And that was because I was taking a lot of insulin and trying to eat a lot less food. And there's there's the prison you see, I'm saying, and so I've been making moves in the right direction all my life. When I was 3330 years ago, I lost 200 pounds, and I reduced from 540 to about 343 50. And then I vacillated between that range 373 50 down to 280, like five times in my life. And so the fact was, I knew how to moderate my mind Hey viewers, but when I got to 270, I couldn't lose any more weight. And so then you just kind of give up, right. And that was a thing that happened. But what I wanted to address is when I got the ball, since when it did turn around overnight, it was a sequence of continuing refinements and adapt adaptations. Okay. And so I got my a one C down from a nine, four with like, no time and range to a six with, you know, 80%, and range. And I've been under 5% for almost two years. Wow. And my standard deviation is under 15. And my time and range, my personal range that I track a 70 to 120. And I achieve mid 90s presets all the time, pretty much. The thing that screws that up is Dexcom, mankind doesn't have a way to measure glucose, whether it's a one C or your finger stick or whatever, it's always an approximation. I'm fond of saying if I became a billionaire, I would focus on not a cure for anything, but how to measure diagnostics, accurate diagnostics, right? Because more so than a cure for diabetes, or a cure for any other thing is effective treatment. That's the thing that we can do now. So that's a passion of mine. measurements include a one C and your data from your Dexcom, you have to take it all together as a bigger picture. You know, I'm saying I achieve those things. But it took a long time. It was quick. But I mean, it wasn't overnight, right? It was a continual process of refinement. And recently, in the last two months or a little bit more by diet bestie and I have have eliminated snacking. And that has had a significant improvement. So even when I was in these numbers, removing the snacking is caused an increase in weight loss and a reduction in my waist size.

Scott Benner 26:45
Well, how many calories do you think you take in a day? Ha.

Jon 26:49
You know, when I started this, I determined only to count carbs, and measure glucose and I felt everything else would fall into place. And that was largely true, you get to a point of diminishing returns on one angle of attack. And you have to add others. Yeah. So now I'm looking at actually, there's other elements of what's going on is I found that my beta cell function was at the level of a person with type one diabetes, it was insufficient to support life. At this stage of the game, I was able to turn it around. And now my latest C peptide shows me at the at the low end of normal. And so you know, they say do something about your type two diabetes now before it's too late. And what I'll tell you is it's never too late. How

Scott Benner 27:36
much insulin do you use today? Like your total daily dose? Versus the first day you put on that pump? Do you like just vaguely you don't need to be exact. But what do you think the difference is?

Jon 27:48
I'll tell you that the day before I put on that pump, I was running 140 units, which receiver, I can't remember where it was immediately, but I got it down to half of that pretty darn quickly, very quickly. And then getting it down the next half likes from 72. Right now my my total daily usage of insulin Bolus and basil combined, is running about 35 units a day. And that's been the case for a few months.

Scott Benner 28:16
Yeah, that's a quarter of a quarter of the amount of that that Basal insulin from beginning of your story. And the increased

Jon 28:23
the larger part of that insulin right when it was at the higher end resulted in things like a 9.4 a one C with no time and rage. And all of that to the to the numbers I have. So it's not even, you can't even do the simple math of one quarter of the insulin right? You're talking about orders of magnitude results. Yeah,

Scott Benner 28:43
I mean, being in the situation you were in and just giving you Basal insulin is really it's almost cruel, honestly, because it's yes, yeah, give me it's slowing down your demise, but it's not really doing anything to stop it. It's just, it's now just crawling forward a little slower than it did the day before.

Jon 28:58
I strongly believe that when a person is with type two diabetes is introduced insulin, it should be done in a very focused manner with reviews. And not just as like go take this and go away and die slowly. It should be here this is now let's do behavioral modifications and other things so that you can reduce the amount of insulin we have to give you right now and also people with type two diabetes who are on insulin should be introduced Bolus insulin as soon as possible.

Scott Benner 29:29
Okay. Do you have any idea what shifted inside of you to help with the addiction to the sugar?

Jon 29:35
I think that my ability to escape that happened much earlier than my access to the tools to enable

Scott Benner 29:42
it. Oh, okay. Oh, so it's not as it's not as instantaneous as the story makes it seemed you had made the decision but didn't know how to do it.

Jon 29:51
Well, that's what I tried to keep there with like, the year before getting it having six extreme hypose Yeah, and And and all that experience. I mean, that was me trying to change my behaviors, but getting slapped into the hypo lows by the insulin

Scott Benner 30:07
I say, Okay, can you put a weight on that? That? Let's go to when you I don't know you found the podcast like what do you weigh that around that time? 350 pounds 350. So you had gotten off 200 pounds on your own? Yeah. For like 30 years for 30 years. So you were up to five something? You lost 200 You maintain that for 30 years at this like 350 ish range?

Jon 30:31
No, actually I went from I went from 350 to 280. Okay, five times. Oh,

Scott Benner 30:36
so you would bounce in over those 30 years, you'd bounce from 350 to 280?

Jon 30:40
Yeah, like about five times four or five times? How did you get from 350 to 280. Same way I got from 540 to 350 calorie deficit for the most part, but also swimming. To get the first 200 pounds. I went and swam a mile a day three times a week at the gym here at University of Virginia. And that was a big part of it. Swimming was my thing. When I was a kid, I had some training.

Scott Benner 31:06
John, can I take a detour for a second? Yes, please. What's it like jumping into a public pool when you're 550 pounds?

Jon 31:14
That's a very good question. A little bit more background about myself. And I touched on this maybe even more depth in my first episode. I was raised institutionalized, I'm diagnosed autistic, and so forth and things. And so it was a pretty weird childhood. And when I was about 17, and living on my own on the road hitchhiking was when I just realized that I'll take my shirt off, if I want to take my shirt off, and I was, you know, over 350 pounds at that point. And I don't care what other people mock me or say about me anymore, because it's just about them. And you've probably heard the concept of flying your freak flag. Hi.

Scott Benner 31:54
I'm sorry, that was your vibe.

Jon 31:56
That was my vibe is you know what? I'm done apologizing for bap. Now, I didn't give myself that break internally as much. But I just couldn't live. I couldn't maintain hiding behind the couch and being afraid of the other

Scott Benner 32:09
kids like when I was younger, but still it made you feel a certain way internally. It was liberating,

Jon 32:15
if that's what you mean. Yeah. Or you mean the shame or something? Yeah, I had to get over that. So you know what, I got the pool I swam. And I'll tell you a funny thing. I was involved in a faculty council that met with the the administrative vice president of the university who is really the BIOS Reading University. And a guy that says, Hey, I see you in the pool all the time. And it's really impressive what you do. And that kind of feedback is rewarding, right? And I'll tell you what, man, I swim my first lap to my last lap at the same speeds going that with that much weight. Wow, it was rewarding. And you know what, when I get to share my successes in the group, it's very rewarding that people exhort me and congratulate me. But more so you know, it's about the lurkers. Right. And so I liked the idea that may be in the group, I can carry a bit of a message for the 40,000 that aren't posting every day. Yeah. And that I was making see that. Go ahead. No, I

Scott Benner 33:11
was gonna tell you that. I do like a weight loss diary, since I started using a GLP last year. And it's not talked about online, nobody brings it up. Like I don't hear from people like, Oh, I'm liking it or anything, but I get a lot of private notes about it. Like this made me feel good. Or I connected with what you said here, or you motivated me to do this or that like, but it's not online, like, whereas with the podcasts when it's about diabetes, you'll get like, people will be out front about it. They're just like, Oh, I heard this episode was really valuable blob above like, they're, they're not afraid to do that. And then like they'll jump on, but no one's mentioned it publicly. But it gets a lot of like private notes. I just think it's one of those things that generally speaking, I don't know that everybody's looking to talk about in public. It's just, it's just interesting. When you put out content the way I do, and you get to watch how people interact with it. It's a real learning experience, to see how people think and feel and what they what they think is important versus what they'll say out loud, sometimes. Just very interesting. I'm sorry, I cut you off. I didn't mean to. No, you

Jon 34:18
did not at all. And that's that's an interesting dynamic that I'm impressed by your ability to deal with the wide variety of people that come to your door, our char tribe. You're very inviting and open to people you tolerate quite a bit. But you work really hard to keep the conversation positive. And so you know what, there's people that are actively participating and everybody that's actively participating, y'all are addressing and speaking to a much larger audience.

Scott Benner 34:48
Yeah, yeah, you don't, you'll never know it. Like, I'll even never know to the extent that it happens, but I get enough feedback to realize Sit does like just to hear from somebody who said, Hey, I've lost 40 pounds since you started your weight loss journey, and I started mine because of you. And I think I don't know this person's name. I've never heard them before. I don't recognize them. I go to my group, I they're not in the group. And I'm like, wow, it's fascinating. Like I just said something positive, maybe hopeful. And I just put it out in the world. And then that person lost 40 pounds. It's crazy, isn't it? It's a message in a bottle. Yeah, man, no kidding gets a really nice way to think of it. Okay, so you mess around between 350 and 280, for 30 years or so. Swimming, not swimming back and forth. I guess the battle between the food and the exercise goes back and forth. I would also imagine that getting to 250 is great. But you're still standing there. 250 go, Oh, my God, I still have weight to lose. Like this is like is my whole goddamn life. Right, like, and so where does it really just start? Like, downhill skiing for you? Like, where do you just like, Where does it start? Where you're like, I'm on this path, and I almost can't get off it now to where you are right now. Tell people what you weigh. Right now. I

Jon 36:06
weighed this morning, I weighed 250.9 pounds on the scale. I've been right at 250 for a couple of weeks now. And

Scott Benner 36:13
this for you a weight is you think this is a good weight for you. Do you think there's more? Do you think you're too thin? What's your opinion of of your body right now?

Jon 36:22
And we'll talk about that surgery and bone. I think yeah, I weigh less now than I did when I was 15 years old. Wow. About that. That's my goal. I have stage one obesity right now. At my height, I was stage six plus, and I had a body mass index about 66. Okay. And now it's about 33. You know, it's imperfect math, right? Unless you do that thing where you get in a sling and go into a saltwater bath. And they weigh you and all that. But the math says, Yeah, so the math says I'm about 33, which puts me in stage one obesity. And my goal is to lose another 30 pounds and become overweight. You like the IRA, I already have that. My goal is to be overweight

Scott Benner 37:09
chested. I've had that goal. So how tall are you just for context for people?

Jon 37:13
I'm six foot one, okay. Or as I like to say, I'm six foot one and a half.

Scott Benner 37:18
I listen, if I was six foot one and a half, I'd added it to Okay.

Jon 37:23
I mean, it affects the BMI calculation and makes it a bit easier.

Scott Benner 37:28
Didn't get shorter when you lost weight. I've seen people lose show shoe sizes.

Jon 37:33
I would think you'd get taller when you lose weight because of less vertical compression.

Scott Benner 37:38
Oh, John, you're saying something there? I was thinking about literally fat under your feet. Well,

Jon 37:43
that's interesting. I'll tell you a thing to maybe interesting is I ended up essentially crippling myself and I use a shower in a chair in the shower, I use a chair in the kitchen, I use electric cars at the store. But I can swim a mile every day before surgery for two months before surgery. I'll swim a mile a day, six days a week. And how do you do that? Right? Well, it's the zero G thing. It's taking the compression off of the spine. And so I'm trying to make that better. I also recently had a comment, I'm glad to be able to get this in here. I had a conversation with my GP was only about two or three weeks ago. And I said we're we need to reevaluate our relationship. And we need to have a relationship where you understand that you are working for me and that I'm in charge. So I had that same conversation with him. And he was happy to do it based on I guess, you know, the results. Yeah. And I said, the first thing I want to do is I want to remove statins, statin from my portfolio. And I said I'd like your advice on how to titrate that how to reduce that dosage. And he said, You know what, let's just take it away completely. And we'll see what's up in two months. And then if we want to, we'll titrate upwards from the minimum dosage and I was like, Yeah, we're, we're, we're we're doing it. So the the reduction of the statins may help with muscular issues.

Scott Benner 38:58
I was gonna say tell people why so we will but let's go backwards a little bit. You've crippled yourself How could go through that?

Jon 39:05
Where you can't wait 540 pounds. And you have what passes for inactive life, right work and all this kind of stuff and it not have issues. A long, long time ago, I had, I think it was an MRI or something. And they said I had compression fractures in the spine. And like, kind of, of course, and so you can't weigh that much. Now. I think we're getting close to the surgery now because after losing all that weight I was carrying around a huge apron of flesh. And imagine if you wore a sack of potatoes around your belly with a belt on your back. What that would do to you after decades

Scott Benner 39:46
pulls on you. Yeah, but John, listen, I've only lost 50 pounds. Okay? And I say only because obviously you're you're in a different league. But what has changed for me? My knees don't hurt. I don't have plantar fasciitis anymore. My back's not always stiff. I feel better generally speaking, like I feel healthier, more awake, more alive. Like all that stuff like, I sleep better, I have significantly less acid reflux almost none, just, you know, all have these different things that have changed with my weight that I swear to you, if you would have asked me prior to losing 50 pounds, Hey, Scott is your plantar fasciitis from your weight, I would have said No, probably not. But I mean, now that you look at it, like, in hindsight, you're like, well, obviously it was, you don't need me like, Why did my knees hurt? Or my knee hurt? Because you know, I have little cartilage break down on my knee like, yeah, okay, it must be genetic or something. Or it's because I had 50 pounds. I don't know how to explain that I'm a pretty bright person. And that I didn't know my knee hurt because I was fat. I know that sounds insane. But I really I didn't know that. I didn't know that I was tired because of that. I didn't understand any of that. And for context, I use the GLP to lose weight. So I haven't significantly changed the things I'm eating. I honestly didn't, I wasn't a particularly poor eater. My body just didn't deal with food. Well, my digestion was wrong, I wasn't holding nutrients correctly. Like all this other stuff was happening, this GLP has changed all of that for me. On my ferritin I just had my bloodwork done. And then I forget, it's like I forget what is 166 or 188. Like, it's it doesn't matter. It's up in that range. I haven't had an infusion in like a year and a half before that, if I didn't have an iron infusion, every six months, my heart would be down to 10. And I was shutting off. My body wasn't even holding my nutrients. And I don't even know how to explain why that is exactly yet. Obviously GLP slows down your digestion, is it just leaving the food in my stomach longer so I can actually absorb the nutrients I'm eating? I don't know, do I have a GLP deficiency? I don't know. But what I do know is my knee doesn't hurt, my back doesn't hurt, my feet don't hurt. I'm more alive and awake. And I swear to God, if you would have asked me two years ago, what that was from, I wouldn't have said my weight. So I don't even know how to explain that.

Jon 42:16
Healthy lifestyle is the fundament for a better life. And whatever disease you have, whether it's curable or you know, like in my case, reversible, in type one, there is no fundamental cure, but there's treatment, eat well shake your bones as much as you can. And things are going to be better.

Scott Benner 42:36
Yeah, I just think that's true. I mean, not that, again, if you would have asked me that. I would have said that. I just didn't think it applied to me for some reason. Right? Yeah. Right. Yeah. So okay, so I'm sorry. So you've got we've got this weight off you now. And you're carrying around a lot of extra skin right?

Jon 42:55
Here, you saw the picture is pretty profound. And yeah, if you look at the size of the hands and some of the pictures, and then transfer that to the picture of the final removal, you can get an idea of the scale there.

Scott Benner 43:09
I mean, you sent me a photo of yourself. It looks like it's taken basically, like from your neck down your splayed, basically, right. And the truth is, is that you have to really focus for a minute to realize it's a person. Like it really is that like, like just, I don't know what the word is altered. And look, it

Jon 43:30
looks like a cattle abattoir kind of thing. Right? It looks like they're cutting cattle open to make meat of it or something. In my opinion. Listen,

Scott Benner 43:39
if you would have told me it was a giant tuna on a boat, and they were getting ready to cut it up. I would have believed that for half a second. Yeah. I mean, how do they measure what they took off it? Was it inches or weight? Or how do they relay it to you? That's

Jon 43:51
a very good question. Because when they take that the skin off, it has the adipose tissue attached to it, you don't lose fat cells. And typically you don't increase the amount of fat cells you have, except for when you get into extreme obesity, you actually do create new fat. So what you do is you to stem them, you fill them, right, they get larger and larger. So when you've lost the weight, there, it's still there. And people who maybe have lost the weight weight as a result of rapid weight loss due to like bariatric surgery or whatever. And then they say you know have to keep it off for 18 months or something. And by the time they take that off there might even have some adjunct liposuction to go with it right to bring everything together. In my case, the doctor noticed that the bulk of the weight loss and also this the other thing, I was down to 270 when I had the surgery, okay, were 275

Scott Benner 44:46
Oh God, John 25 pounds without a skin.

Jon 44:48
So no, no, no, the actual weight of the skin was 13 pounds. But the doctor said Had this been like an 18 month weight loss. It would have weighed considerably more Oh, because of the the condition of the fat cell. Yeah. So what I had was a very emaciated layer of fat. And that ended up causing complications with fluid with drainage later. But on the other hand, in terms of healing, I healed like a Star Trek movie. You know, I mean, like when they pass the hand over the wound, the alien does and it heals right away. Yeah, I healed amazingly fast. And the doctor pointed out and trained the staff on this as well, that drainage is just a standard component of the healing and it's not a complication. Mine took a long time. But everything else healed up so amazingly well. And I would like to say at this point, put this out, too. We as Luke during my operations, the iOS loop app was used during my operation to maintain my blood glucose levels. How

Scott Benner 45:47
long was the operation? Five

Jon 45:49
hours plus,

Scott Benner 45:51
wow. And was there someone there managing your diabetes for you when you're out? Are you just let the loop run it?

Jon 45:56
Well, so you know, there's two people in the surgery that are the the prime operators, one guy's got is keeping you alive, and the other guys is doing the surgery. So the anesthesiologist is key. And I met my anesthesiologist before the surgery. And we had meetings, and he said he was very interested in using loop. And so we use loop during my surgery. So he had my phone on his station, and did not have D five, set up dextrose 5%. Right. He did not have a dextrose solution setup for me, gets ready to do so it needed. He knew my control. And he knew what I was doing. And we we had done a zoom session where I showed him how loop worked. We ran it through my surgery. And by gum, it was just amazing. And, you know, I believe I know it opens the door for other people, because it was really, it's not likely that you're going to get a surgical team to do that.

Scott Benner 46:52
Arden's had short procedures where they've let it run. She's also had procedures where they told me to shut it off, and I pretended to shut it off and left it off.

Jon 47:03
Yeah, but this was like a full on five hours.

Scott Benner 47:06
This was a four to five hours of eight hours of recovery where you're not awake afterwards. No eight hours front end

Jon 47:13
of unconsciousness, right? Because about three hours and I mean, right, tacked on to either end. And you know, I get that out of my Nightscout to

Scott Benner 47:21
I can see Yeah, listen to I mean, the truth is, it's a good example of good settings, and how you can fast with diabetes to if you have if your settings are good, and you're on a good algorithm like that. So Well,

Jon 47:32
having said that, because of my, my diabetes is my diabetes, and what I do is what I do, but I eat once a day, one time in a day later than I should, because I work and I get involved in things. So I eat about 7pm would

Scott Benner 47:46
walk me through your day that you wake up. You don't eat you drink anything. Water. Okay.

Jon 47:51
Oh, coffee, coffee. I love coffee. But I'll tell you about coffee is I don't allow myself to have coffee every day. Because chemical dependency, I

Scott Benner 47:59
say you don't want to get hooked on it. Yeah, I don't drink coffee. But um, when I see some people, they go after it like it's a little too important. You don't I mean,

Jon 48:09
it has a physiological effect. And I need to be I need to be in control of my physiology.

Scott Benner 48:15
You think it would be a gateway to sugar and other things?

Jon 48:19
At this point? No, because I'm hell bent. But I do think it can be something that everything is kind of in moderation. And I think that too much of anything is not good. And, and caffeine is a drug. And I don't want to stimulate those portions of my brain, even if it's not going to get me into sugar. I say, I don't want to be a junkie.

Scott Benner 48:39
No, I hear what you're saying. Okay, so I'd like to know a little more about the surgery. So where does most of the I mean, are they taking it from limbs from midsection, everywhere?

Jon 48:52
I have a 30 inch suture going horizontally across my body just above the pubis just above the mons, right, yeah, and it goes 30 inches from each side, each side. I'm 5046 inches now. So you can imagine. Oh my gosh, I never even thought about this though right now. But 16 inches of me is not hitch or is the hinge right. The other is this 30 inch scar that goes all the way around. And so what they do is they cut that just below my moves. I had to get that choke and they cut me just you know, somewheres below up high north, and then they cut me right above the mons maybe a little bit deep there because he pulled it up a bit, which was lovely. Yeah. And my doc, every surgeon has a different philosophy and so forth. And some people want to be what they call snatched, so they have a tight bod. But I'm not in the tight BOD kind of category. He doesn't want to pull you too tight. So you have to walk over and a hunch for a long time and all this. So anyways, they cut you apply, they cut you down low, and they remove the section tapering towards the edges, right? It tapers down, and then they saw you back up to top into the bottom end. Wow. Yeah, it's pretty profound. Those pitchers you don't understand until you see the pitcher. Now there's

Scott Benner 50:03
no way to understand that actually, was it painful the recovery? Not at

Jon 50:07
all. And it's, again, it's different for everybody else. I have a high pain threshold, I have chronic pain. And it just it for me, I didn't take any painkillers at all. Okay,

Scott Benner 50:15
I do wonder if not to your degree, but I do wonder if this is a thing I'll need eventually. Or if I'll just because it's funny, I don't think about it. Like, I have to say, visually, I don't care. I'm so much happier being smaller that this bit that's around my midsection. Still, they're still fat there. I'm not done yet. But if it was just skin, I honestly don't know if I would care. I'm so happy, just feeling better.

Jon 50:46
And that's a lot of the way I felt about it. But it becomes physically debilitating. It is hygienic ly and sexually limiting. It is caused me to be effectively, you know, crippled, yeah. Now I'm going to turn that around to I said somebody at the store the other day, we're talking, I said, I decided to swallow my pride and take the ride. So I'm in the little electric cart. And it's funny, I used to be in that little electric cart and be a big guy in the electric cart. And now I'm in our society, a normal size guy, as it were, and I'm in the car. And you know, I want to get up and start walking. But I know that halfway through my shopping or a quarter of the way through, I will not be able to continue to be exhaust carry on. So I have to this is spoons theory of disability, you have so many spoons to spend in a day, right? And I don't want to spend all of my ability, starting to shop and not being able to finish. And then before I took the cart, I would do that I would get stuff real quick, go to the checkout, sit there leaning against the candy now trying to support my weight and my pain and sit in the car for 10 minutes before I could drive home. Yeah, so I decided at one point to give myself that break. But now I'm kind of at the point where I want to go there for a small shopping and do it without sitting down in the car. But then I don't want people to say oh, you've been faking it. Or like

Scott Benner 52:00
John's complicated. I got a quick little procedure on my big toe ones. And the next day, Kelly's like, I'm gonna go to the restroom. Like, I'm totally coming with you. And she goes, what you can't walk. I'm like, I know, I want to drive the car rolled around that place like a king on that card. I was like it was amazing. So what do you think? I mean, you're obviously on a path to get your like, what is it? You're trying to get back muscle tone, like, what do you think you're lacking right now?

Jon 52:26
Yes, the first thing I'm trying to do is get some core strength back. And when I was swimming before the surgery that was really working out well. And I wanted to add to that, a home gym component of barbells. And working on some weight training, not necessarily a complete, we would call the long, not the barbells. But the full weight thing. Maybe not that to start but just the barbells and do a bunch of different exercises to start bringing the bat in which would continue to increase the metabolic rate, it would do muscular things that are important for me and all that. I'll tell you a problem is the work I do, I don't get paid very much money at all. And I'm kind of just barely making it. And my car went completely but up. And so I don't have a car and I can't get to the pool. And I am desperately trying to find a used car. I've got a limited amount of money that I can spend on the used car market is insane. Yeah. And I live rural. So by the time I find something that's a candidate, I have to drive a whole day there and back to look at it and there's undisclosed damage. So right now the biggest thing of my life is getting mobile again, and getting back in the pool right away. And thing is, can I start doing some weight or resistance band training right now? Yes, I can. And I need to not use the swimming as an excuse for that. But the reality is that time in the pool with zero G means everything to me. Big

Scott Benner 53:45
deal. Yeah. Yeah. I wonder if your doctor couldn't get a transport for you to the pool under insurance? Well, the

Jon 53:55
problem with that is I have marketplace insurance. I'm thrilled that they cover my diabetic supplies, right? They're not going to go too far into that. The other thing is timing of it. So my work? Yeah, I guess you're right. I trained people how to use Lou, they schedule sessions with me, my calendars available, they schedule sessions with me. And I find that people are on my calendar, right that they just show up. And I have to schedule around that. I'm going to swim the mile that I do, it takes me an hour, but it takes the whole round trip at least 90 minutes. And I've got to fit that in my day. And I've got to be so you can't like oh, the transport is late today. Or, you know, I have to be back at my office home office to do the next session. And so that's a limiter and you know, again, there's all kinds of rationalizations and you have to not let this stop you or slow you down. So you know, I'm once again convicted that I need to get out some resistance bands and work with that. I do have a little treadmill under the desk thing that I give some work with. Yeah, I'm sorry. My answer is I can I can do more regardless and I need to Okay,

Scott Benner 55:00
well, I mean, it's tough. Like if the walking, I mean it, the zero gravity of the water is what's really is what's making it possible for you. Yeah, yeah. Unfortunate

Jon 55:10
it really is. Now, I'm hoping that that plus the weight training can get me core strength, it'll take some stress off of the off of the back. But I also believe that the Statins have been causing me some muscle issues that may be playing into a lot as well. I was

Scott Benner 55:25
going to ask how long of being off of them do you think until you feel value

Jon 55:30
from that? I'm very much enamored of the scientific method and not allowing correlation to be mistaken for causation and things like this. So I really try to get long data on things I can tell you that subjectively it feels like I'm feeling better, I'm sleeping, I don't have cramps. So I can't sleep more, we're more about two or three hours, and I have to get up and walk it off, okay. And I've been able to sleep I've been able to sleep five or six hours, okay, and I'm also ingesting salts. I'm increasing my specific salt intakes, not just salt on my food, but I'm using a salt supplement, I often get very bad debilitating cramps in my legs at night. And those are dramatically reduced as well. So give me another six months. And I'll tell you, you know, I'm sad. But right now, I think it's, it's I don't think it's any worse. I have to have a cholesterol test in another month or two, and just get a handle on what's happening there. I think it's better Good.

Scott Benner 56:28
I'm glad. Just thinking about your predicament. And it's hard to like, I'm trying to look for other ideas that would be valuable for you. But I don't know what they're none are popped into mind. You know?

Jon 56:39
Yeah, basically, I just need to find the miracle used car that's going to work out for me for you know, the $6,000 I've got Yeah, and I just need to run about to do groceries and stuff. And as soon as I do that, I'm going to be a regular fixture at the pool again. And that's going to be a really cool thing.

Scott Benner 56:54
I don't I don't want to get into your I'm not trying to get your finances but okay. All right. Well, I hope hopefully, this is something you can figure out. So

Jon 57:00
I have friends to talk about a GoFundMe, but I'm the guy who contributes to go fund this. So I know this

Scott Benner 57:07
is gonna sound ridiculous, but you said that when he cut you, you know, at your waist. And he cinched it up like you, you were like, which was lovely. And I was like is that my penis looks bigger joke. I couldn't tell if that's what you were doing.

Jon 57:18
No, you know what? It's funny that it's a joke. And I'll be you know what, I discovered that I have one. It's crazy. Like I mentioned earlier, hygienic, and sexual function is vastly improved, you know, when I not to be graphic or anything, but when I put my hand around my pelvis, I feel a bone. I can do the Michael Jackson thing. You know, I'm

Scott Benner 57:41
talking about you. And you and I can prior to that No, right? Like, Oh, hell no. Yeah,

Jon 57:47
let me let me let you I might turn this into an after dark episode. I hope not. But in order to use a public restroom to urinate, I would have to go into a stall because I'd have to drop my trousers to my waist. Lift up my belly and do my business. And you know, what's a wonder? This sounds so silly. I can use my fly now.

Scott Benner 58:09
I tell you that must have been exciting. I'm being serious. So yeah,

Jon 58:13
I am too. Yeah. And they sell hygenic aged we have all to take care of when you defecate

Scott Benner 58:19
when you're that large. I've seen the towel on the stick thing. Yeah,

Jon 58:23
yeah. Yeah, I used to have to take a shower. I'm, it's all of a sudden become too TMI. But it gives depth to the thing.

Scott Benner 58:31
No, of course. So for clarity for people. You at that weight, bowel movement. You had to move to the shower afterwards, because there was no reaching to what you needed to reach.

Jon 58:40
Yeah, and I wasn't gonna get a towel on a stick. Yeah.

Scott Benner 58:43
And that's something man. Oh my gosh, well, your life has changed. 540

Jon 58:47
pounds is profound. That's my 600 pound life. Yeah.

Scott Benner 58:51
But your life has changed so significantly.

Jon 58:55
Yeah. Can you imagine I weighed 250 pounds. i After the surgery, I got 50 inch pants. I took the four inch before that after recovery from the surgery removal of the drains. I was wearing 50 inch pants. And that was like, almost three months after the surgery is how long it took the drains to come out. Right. And I went I bought from Amazon 5250 and 48 and you know, they have to try before you buy and I kept the 50s and it was just this week that I was like my diet bestie and I were talking and she said you know you lost a lot of weight and my pants were falling off and couldn't keep my pants off. Right on so I had to I had to put more holes in my belt. Anyways, I said you know what, I'm gonna go ahead and order a 50 a 48 and a 46 and we'll see what happens.

Scott Benner 59:37
And the 46 fits nice. Oh, it's so wonderful.

Jon 59:41
44 is off there is not the big and tall store.

Scott Benner 59:44
I started last year 38 waist and I'm a 32 now and I swear to you, you go I swear to you, I appreciate you ever I swear to you. I didn't think that was possible. Like, I mean, I really didn't think if I stuck my hands on my sides that my hips and push back then or now, like, I didn't think it was any different. But it is it's so significantly different. It's crazy. Like I put a suit on today, I was out earlier. And I had a suit on him. And I got to this place where I mean, everyone was wearing suits, but people just kept coming up to me like, Oh, my God, you look terrific. And I was like, thank you. I like it's I'm just smaller. That's all there is to it. You know,

Jon 1:00:29
when you have 46 inch waist and you're wearing size 50 or 50 to pass. It doesn't reflect where you are.

Scott Benner 1:00:38
No, it makes it worse. It really does. Like, I'll tell you one of the silliest things that I've done in the last year, super simple. But I've donated a lot of clothing over the last year. And I've always been very careful not to buy a bunch because I'm like, I'm not where I'm going yet. I'm not going to buy a bunch of clothing and then give it away again, like I was living on like the same two pairs of pants, like through the winter. You don't I mean, like doing that thing. Yeah, yeah. And but I, I spend a few extra dollars now on my T shirts, so that they're a higher quality fabric. And I find that I just think I just think I'm presenting better now. And yes, you lose that like clean feeling when your clothing is too big as well. Like it's not just the fabric. Yeah, it's the way it fits you. You look, the old homeless basically, you don't I mean, you look like you're reaching your bag and you took what they gave you is basically how it ends up, you know, coming off.

Jon 1:01:32
It reminds me at the height. Oh, go ahead. No,

Scott Benner 1:01:35
I was just gonna say it actually, it impacts how you feel about yourself. And you don't realize it right away

Jon 1:01:41
when I was at my maximum weight, and went to the big and tall store, and had to go to the far end of the pants, to the 70 fours. And all they have are bright orange and checkered plaid.

Scott Benner 1:01:57
That seems that seems like a joke, doesn't it? Yeah. It

Jon 1:02:00
seems like a cruel joke. Yeah. And, you know, I ordered some jeans just, they're gonna get here tomorrow. Everything's Amazon. I ordered some denim jeans. They're not quite Levi's Bible ones, you know, I'll get this. I don't even know if they still make those. But there's some jeans and I expect, you know, to really dig on that and I'm gonna get shirts. Next couple of shirts.

Scott Benner 1:02:24
Let me ask you a question. I was sharing this with my wife the other day. If I have a larger meal than I'm accustomed to now, and I feel full tick, just have that very full feeling. When I get to a mirror, I almost consciously expect to look better. And and when I don't, I'm stunned. And it's a real I can see that. Yeah. So I told my wife. And as I was saying it to her, she goes, I know exactly what you're talking about. Like if you feel full. When you look yourself in the mirror, you expect to see the old view there. I was like, Oh, my guy suggests. Yeah, please let me suggest

Jon 1:03:01
something that comes to mind. This may or may not be true. But this is a perception I have on it is when you're full like that and satiated. You're on the drug rush. And that same drug rush makes you remember this conditions of that addiction

Scott Benner 1:03:19
could very well

Jon 1:03:21
put you in the mind of that body. Yeah, you become that person that's under the control of overeating, or bad eating. And so you feel like that person and he doesn't change just because of that one meal and you look at yourself and you're like, No, no, I'm still I'm still. Okay. But maybe that's a mechanism to make you think hey, don't it's

Scott Benner 1:03:41
been an illuminating year so far. I have to say.

Jon 1:03:44
I'd like to follow up. I enjoy the journey you've had on that as well.

Scott Benner 1:03:49
Oh, good. I'm glad. Thank you.

Jon 1:03:50
i How's your glucose? How's

Scott Benner 1:03:52
your mine's good pre diabetic diet. Okay. Yeah, I've had my endocrinologist told me last year, she said look, based on all of your, your a one sees over the years that I see she goes, I think it is incredibly unlikely for you to ever develop type two diabetes. And I was like,

Jon 1:04:11
I've noticed super obese people that are dead now, that did not have diagnosed diabetes.

Scott Benner 1:04:17
Yeah. My fasting glucose is they're always like in the, you know, 80s Nice. I think I've shouldn't talk on something probably, but I think I'll be alright. And that that's based. I don't know if I'll get type one diabetes. But well, yeah. That

Jon 1:04:31
gets triggered right? By events, right? You get you get COVID You get

Scott Benner 1:04:35
I've never done trial that personally. So I don't know if I have markers or not. Well,

Jon 1:04:42
you you know as as much as anybody more than anybody the the genetic relationships in the family tree actions. I

Scott Benner 1:04:49
don't think it's not possible, that's for sure. I'm just trying to, I mean, at this point, John, I'm just trying to eat well, and move and continue in the right interaction. Those are my goals.

Jon 1:05:02
Something I wanted to share that that I thought of just a few moments ago, is I like being hungry. Okay. It's a feeling I enjoy. I don't like being hungry to the point where I'm, I'm feeling physically impacted like, you know, I'm low sugar per se but like I'm ravenously hungry, but I like to be hungry and that's a feel. I think that's because that's a feeling I never had. I thought I was hungry. I was obsessed. I was feeding the drug needs. I was hungry for the dopamine. Yeah, but you know, like, so my fasting isn't at all difficult for me. And when I do get a little hungry, I know that dinner is coming soon. I make beautiful food. If you look at my timeline on Facebook, you'll see that I just make really, really good meals. So I was also worried am I going to have a rebound? Where I go from obsessive eating to some sort of anorexics thing, right? And absolutely not. I enjoy my food so much. Good. Good. I'm

Scott Benner 1:06:00
glad I have to say I do too. I had like a like a chicken sandwich last night for dinner. Like I took some chicken breasts and I season them and and and I put a tiny bit of oil in the pan a little olive oil. I fried them up and they were nice and tasty. I put it in a pita threw some lettuce in with it. I graded a tiny bit of cheese over it. I sat and ate it. It was half it was half a chicken breast. And I got done. I'm like I'm full. This is great. I'm good. I don't know what

Jon 1:06:26
the half of the time you spent making. It was as much a part of that meal as for

Scott Benner 1:06:30
sure. Ya know, I love making food. I still do. I like making food for my kids to like, it makes me happy to cook for them. But But beyond that I got up this morning. And I went to a viewing today. So people are like, Oh, Scott in the middle of the weekend a suit but nothing fancy. I did not eat today until about I think two o'clock in the afternoon. And I was hungry at that point. But if I wouldn't have eaten, I would have been okay to. Yep, yep, yep. Now it's 6pm. Like obviously my day is a little upside down because this viewing came out of nowhere and John was nice to move his his recording around with me. I'm probably going to finish with you and go have the other half of that chicken breast into similar pizza again, I'll probably that's probably how I'll end the day. Last

Jon 1:07:14
night I had a cup of soup for my meal. It was a very light. It was a very light day today. I don't know what I've got the frosted to figure that out. Oh, you know, I'll probably I'll probably have an omelet.

Scott Benner 1:07:28
Okay. Oh, I eat a lot of eggs. I love Yep. Yeah. Usually for breakfast, I have a couple of eggs in in a wrap with something some protein usually, you know, something like that. I do that in the morning a lot. Yeah, no, I

Jon 1:07:42
agree. I'm gonna have a sausage. Yeah, it's nice.

Scott Benner 1:07:46
All right, let's it's time for me to ask you if we've missed anything, because I know you had some pretty specific, like, you're very prepared, and I appreciate it. And yet, you're very conversational, which I also appreciate. So I want to make sure we're not missing anything that you meant to talk about.

Jon 1:08:00
You know, I wanted to talk about the consistency and the improvement, the fact that it wasn't just an overnight thing and gone. And so the idea of sustaining a healthy relationship with my diabeetus. And the other factors in my life is I think a big part of my message is that it's not rigorous for me. It's very affirming and positive, it reduces stress in my life. I'm not at odds with the way I eat. And I'm constantly rewarded with the results I see. And I continue to increase those rewards. It's, you know, diminishing returns. It's not really here yet, because there's so many things that I continue to be able to improve. And another part of the message is it's never too late. And I guess another part of the message is, there's more that binds us than separates us. And so a healthy lifestyle, healthy social interactions, healthy interactions with food, all these things will reduce our suffering, and help us to focus on the things that are effective in treating the chronic illnesses we have. And so I really appreciate that your group was open to all

Scott Benner 1:09:11
of us. Oh, no, it's my pleasure. I want very much for the group to be open to everybody. I also think that what helps you as a person with type two diabetes, what helps a person with type one diabetes? And what how, what helps the person who doesn't have diabetes? Speaking about like, just general health, food, that kind of thing? I don't know that any of us are in a different boat than anybody else. Finger you know what I mean? I mean, I think quality food at a reasonable proportion is something everyone should be aiming at. I just think that people with diabetes are forced to pay attention to it sooner in life than maybe people without it are.

Jon 1:09:47
Yes, but you know what the Epilepsy Foundation as a whole webpage about addressing diet and exercise, right? Everybody

Scott Benner 1:09:55
should be doing what you're doing to some degree or another So obviously, it wasn't easy for you, you had mitigating factors, so to a lot of other people, but I mean, it's just very impressive that you stayed after John, you're you speak like a young man, I don't know if you're aware of that or not like, and you have a younger voice, but like, it's important to remember, you're 63 years old, you know, and you're, and you're doing these things. And you have the attitude of somebody who's 25, and just gained 10 pounds and realized, Oh, my God, it's getting away from me, you're trying with that kind of energy. And I think that may be the most impressive part of this whole thing, to be perfectly honest. And if people go back to listen to your first episode, that a number of things stacked against you, when you're growing up, too. So yeah, yeah, it's a bit rough. It's a bit rough. It's a very kind way to talk about a child. But yeah, it was a bit rough.

Jon 1:10:43
I like to say, it's half jokingly or whatever. But I'm a 16 year old guy who acts sometimes like he's 12 and thinks he's like, 25.

Scott Benner 1:10:54
That's good, though. I think that there's I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I just think that it'd be easy for people to listen to you and forget that you're a 63 year old man who's been through all this and whose body has been through what it's been through, and you're still putting in this effort, and you're willing to take slow returns to?

Jon 1:11:11
Well, I believe the biggest gift I have right now is sharing my success with other people that can identify with it and adopt some of the elements, you know, see hoping it and maybe adopt some of these elements to address their needs when they're much, much younger.

Scott Benner 1:11:25
Yeah, I want to say to that, I think the GLP has helped me. So I've always, like as an adult, I always kind of endeavor to find things that make me more patient, because my patients is not is not good, right? So I do things like iraes cactuses, because they grow very slowly. Nice. And if you get it to grow an inch in a year, and you don't kill it, you've really accomplished something. And so I like the idea of doing something that doesn't pay you back right away. The GLP helped me with that, too. And here's how I knew I was going to lose weight on the GLP. I just knew I was going to, but I knew it wasn't gonna happen quickly. And I was able to, instead of saying, I gotta lose weight, I want to be 10 pounds lighter in a week or a month, or like, you know, like having that kind of like fervor for it. I was able to say, I don't care how long this takes, because I know when I get there, I'm gonna be where I mean to be. And that was really helpful. And then because of the GLP, there was weight loss along the way. So I didn't endure to in three weeks in the first six months where I was like, Oh, my God, my weights not going down. always felt like it was working, which allowed me to actually be patient, II call it a crutch or whatever you want. I honestly, I'm looking for doctors to come on and talk about how the medications work. I think I've got a couple lined up. But I genuinely believe I have some sort of a deficiency that it's covering. And just being able to see things moving in the right direction allowed me to act about my weight, the way I do about the cactus, I grow, there's a little light green ring. It grew. And I was able to say that's fine, because it's alive. And I've got all the time in the world. So I'll just wait. I don't know. It's just I think being patient is a big part of having the kind of success that you had. And I don't know what you think about that.

Jon 1:13:24
Well, I can relate in one way directly. I have eight aquariums here. And the largest are 60 and 75, gallons and small Sarkar. 40. I practice a style of fish keeping that is you would call a balanced environment. So a lot of people are focused on changing the water in the tank regularly and adding additives and all this, my focus is on doing as little as possible to achieve a balanced ecosystem. And my aquariums are just gorgeous, full of plant growth, the fish live forever, everything's pretty cool. And for me, that is a part of my diabetes, self care, the ability to maintain those environments in balance is informed by my ability to do it myself. So your thing with the cactus I can really relate to, because my thing with the aquariums is related to my self care. Yeah,

Scott Benner 1:14:15
I've talked about this in the podcast, a couple of little places, but I've almost by mistake become a person who owns a chameleon. And it's lovely that chameleon is absolutely lovely, but it was a gift. And the people who gave me the gift as much as I appreciate it didn't actually buy me the chameleon that I would have bought for myself had I bought a chameleon. So once I learned how to do you know all and it's another one of those things, it's an incredible amount of detail that you know, to do to do it right. And, you know, again, there's this living thing on the other side waiting, you know, for you to to do it right, you know, so I added a second chameleon I have to I'm not going to get any more I promise. The second one I got grows incredibly slowly. For over like three years to become, even to an adult size and may keep growing beyond that. But it needs a really large enclosure. And it's the same idea that there's this little tiny baby thing right now, that looks like it's in a world that's too big for itself. But it's but it's not an I don't get to see it fill up unless I do a good balanced, slow and steady job for this little animal for at least three years, right, then go. And I think of it the same exact way. Like I like that it can't be rushed. I think it's important for

Jon 1:15:36
people. And that's the way I feel about my goals for my diabetic control. My weight is, you know, it's been going actually remarkably quickly, but I never had any impetus to do it. Any of the feed i There's a phrase I use is one millimole at a time,

Scott Benner 1:15:51
that's a great, it's a great way to put it I if you're measuring your weight loss, your health recovery, your diabetes, care, any of that stuff in days or weeks. I think you're putting yourself in an unfair position.

Jon 1:16:03
You'll never get there. You know, you have to do you have to keep hiking. And when you get to the next rest place, you look down and you see the progress you've made. And then you snack, you rest. You drink your water and you get up and you walk the next mile. buy

Scott Benner 1:16:16
another pair of pants two inches smaller and get going again.

Jon 1:16:19
Exactly. I mean, can you imagine when I get to go to town and bypass at a store? Yeah, no, I'm

Scott Benner 1:16:26
excited for you honestly. Yeah, seriously. That's a couple months away. Yeah. Now I've had listen, I feel weird saying this. But you know, there's a death in my extended family came out of nowhere. I had to go to a viewing today. And it was yesterday afternoon, I said to my wife, oh my God, I don't have anything to wear to this viewing. And I ran out last night at like, seven o'clock. And I was like, she's like, What are you gonna do? Am I gonna go to Macy's to get a jacket? Like, you know what I mean? Like, I got a, you know, so be respectful. I met Matt Listen, he's a great guy. And, and he died. And he deserves for me to show up at his viewing in a suit. And it's just how I feel. Right? So. Yes, so I'm out. And I gotta tell you as sad as the reason was, I was shopping. I never had a better half an hour of my life in a store. I mean, I tried every jacket on, I look good. And every one of them. I was like, Oh my God. Like I thought that color wasn't for me. I thought that print was it wasn't that it was I was overweight. I didn't even realize it. And so I you know, I was able to shop I felt terrific. You know, like doing it I at one point, I was like, I'm going to try it on the slim cut. I was like, Oh my God, this fits to like, none of this makes any sense. I walked out of there, I felt like I was 12 feet tall. Like seriously.

Jon 1:17:43
I don't want to be too presumptuous. But you know what? I'll bet you the old man smiled at that. No, I

Scott Benner 1:17:49
hope so. I hope so.

Jon 1:17:50
You know what I'm saying? Yeah, that's, that's the best tribute you could make anybody you love is to take care of yourself. And to be in a place where you can feel that way. I

Scott Benner 1:17:59
was the happiest person that a funeral today you've ever seen in your life on because I was just like, Man, I know, I look good in this suit. As much as it's not about how you look, it's how healthy you feel. It is like, to some degree, I feel better because I look better. And that's just you know, I didn't dislike myself before John, but and I don't like myself more now. But it's just that I'm having a different lived experience at this point. I

Jon 1:18:24
think that's a good way to put it. And when I put on those 40 sixes, I had the 46 and 48. In the 50. I said, Let's start at the 46 I can get done with this. And when they fit. It was like, you know, the heavens opened, there were trumpets, there was like, a little giggity giggity. I mean, it was a high. It felt really good. It felt like arriving

Scott Benner 1:18:43
oh my god even pushing the clothing into like a one of those bins where you make the donations. I've never been so happy to give something away that I just bought. You know, I was like, oh my god, hope somebody else can use this, but it's not mine anymore. And I don't need it. Because, um, you know, 3836 34? You know, actually, when it went to 32, I decided I was like this doesn't make sense, like so.

Jon 1:19:05
And you know what, I have that history of gaining weight back. I broken through that so far beyond that. I'm never going back.

Scott Benner 1:19:13
I feel that way too. My wife was like, Are you going to keep anything? And I was like, No, I was like, I will not. It'll be my punishment to myself. If I have to go back out and buy something at a bigger size. So then I don't know if that's healthy or not. But I just I was like, I'm not keeping any of this because it felt like a crutch if I did, honestly. Hey,

Jon 1:19:30
I did get to talk about everything. And I again, I want to thank you for the opportunity to to share my story again.

Scott Benner 1:19:38
Oh, of course. All right. Well, John, I'm terrific. I'm gonna let you go defrost your meal and I'm going to make my chicken sandwich and we're all gonna go be happy and healthy. Yes. Hold on for me for a second. I'd like to say goodbye privately. Sure, thanks.

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